Morning Star

Filling me to the brim with lavish warmth,
I thank thee. To infiltrate
My heart,
I adore thee even more. The bright light that clears the fog
Of yesterday is what drives me to strive consciousness
And conquer the day that is before me.

Droplets of morning dew
Quake in fear.
Run and hide in the dirt below, as they jump from petals
And leaves to hide from you until tomorrow morning.

-x

Mother & Daughter

Mothers and Daughters fighting like animals,
over something to do...
with a relationship that is broken,
just like you.

Forgive yourself, Mother, for we all have sinned;
please understand, Daughter, that we both can't win;
To the judgment of the higher power,
that's neither of us.

I love you, said Daughter, but this relationship cannot exist,
unless we attempt to forgive everything and forget.
But listen, said Mother, you are screaming out of disrespect...
I will never do such a thing, this is set.

I want to try and forgive you, but it's just hate instead,
I hate this, but it's too much to regret.
You cannot stop me from what I want to do, said Daughter.
So I'll just say goodbye...

Don't forget, said Mother, this was all because you lied.
Angel of Sanity, hear me whisper. Said the lovely Daughter,
I want to be happily ever after, with my Grandelders & Lover.
Nothing can take him away, so I cannot complain,
But if they try to do such, I will go insane!!

Lover had proven himself worthy, according to Elders and Her;
But the Mother and her Circus say otherwise,
Nothing can stop the Daughter, Lover and their plan
For running off to a place known as Neverland.
they shall live there forever, and be in holy peace;
Living and loving as always, to survive without those beasts...

-x

Journal Entry 001: So much to say... It makes it hard to sleep sometimes.

I love you so much, it hurts to know that the future and unfortunate things we must think about rear its' ugly head. I hate the fact that when I think of this, I cry. I get upset. I think to myself, "I can't loose you. I refuse to let you go. You're mine. You're my happiness. My love. My affection. Mine. You were made for me. I don't want to be alone again. Take me with you. Stay with me, don't leave me here alone again." I don't want to be unhappy, and by myself again. You, are the best thing to ever happen to me. I can't get bored with you. I can't stay mad at you.

The way you show affection is so beautiful to me, if I didn't have it, I know I'd still be in a vicious cycle of regret. I regret nothing when I'm with you, I'm scared of what I need to be scared of. I've grown to love myself as much as I love you. I don't know if this is the hormones talking but I want to give you everything I am so we can make this work like we talked about,

i want to be your fiance one of these days.
i want to be yours forever.
Even if I have to wait for you to say you want these too, I will wait for however long it takes. Because you are worth it to me. you are worth more then gold, diamonds, and oil in this lifetime.

I will wait.
It will be ok.
We will make it.
Because We love each other. You love me. I love you.

A Modern Myth

you surprise me, astound me,
confound me, and intrigue me.
i try to find the chapter i was on, and lose it;
an ever changing story, we're becoming,
this chance is turning into;
expect turns and dead ends; forks in the road and construction.
please, be gentle with the binding,
it'll only last for so long.

Be All Mine

Don't tell me that
(But I need to hear it)
Why am I so obsessed with my fears
(Because history likes to repeat itself)
What can I do to change my ways of taking things in
(Let it out, then and there.)
Don't leave me.
Don't say you're just riding this out.
Don't tell me.
Don't tell me.
Don't tell me.
Stop.
Stop.
STOP.
Don't tell me this,
when we're both in horrible places.

We're a couple, right?
We're in love, right?
You won't leave....right?
I can cling to this with everything I have, right?!
I can say you're mine and know it's true, RIGHT?!
RIGHT?!
AM I RIGHT?!

Or am I wrong?
Should I have doubt in my ideals, and thoughts?
Doubt us, you, me and our love?
Should I keep this in another file cabinet I do everything else,
And leave it be locked away?
Or sit here, cry silently and be angry.
Be upset, hurt, and wanting to hold you,
Scream at you, Love you, and swear to me that you'll stay with me.
And be all mine.

Cry Wolf

Show me a sign,
That will make it out someday,
Promise me one day,
Will make it out someway.

Please don't cry Wolf, with jowls matted in
red,
with paws clawing at the door.
Please, don't deceive me like those before.
I'll lose my mind,
I'll try to leave this all behind.
I'll let you in,
Unlock the door,
Stop your pawing....

Will the day come,
when the world lives in harmony,
In peace?
With out drones, without worries, cares,
Fears, scars, devastation, disaster, horror,
Callings with no meaning echo in my head, like a rattlesnake.

Please, don't cry wolf.
-x

A Flower Garden's Teary Song To Mother Earth

In the days that slip by like rain to the earth,
Needed yet left unnoticed,
I notice how much I need you like a winter's showers.
Replenish what is me and help rebuild what is there.
Make this being better then the years before,
Surpass the other lovers, the other words whispered to me,
In hopes to drown out, drain out and remove the poisons and hormones
They pumped into my roots that long to be growing into your soil.

Let us then resume the gardening of the soul.
Digging up holes just to place ourselves, our secrets,
Our lives into them.
Wishing beauty and color will derive from such small yet potent seeds.
They will come through from the murky, grainy soil.
Even if it kills me.
I hope, says the flower, You and I
Stay leeched together,
Stay attached until we wither as one,
Returning to your lovely green roots.
And embracing the soft, delicate world that is romance among two
Flower and Earth.

-x

Wedding Bells In Hell

Such a beautiful sight, isn't it?
I want that more than life itself without you.
Not even an eternal being, given by God or Beast, wouldn't make this hellish place
Home without you in ti.
This is what I see when I look at you,
When I touch you.
Talk to you,
Dance, sing and laugh with you.
You are my snowy night,
those lovely sites in magazines and movie scenes,
can't begin to bring me back to you;
songs sung by angels, demons, whores...
Make it easier to know,
you're mine.

Tainted Paradise

I'm in a realm of twilit fantasies,
Looming happiness and shining worries.
But you, my love, take my hand?
Grip it tighter and tighter,
Wipe my fears away?
As I'll do for you,
That's all I'm begging please.
No more tears,
No more fears,
we're in the clear.
No more danger,
We can put it to bed.
So rest your head,
and know I love you.
I'll do everything in my power to protect us,
from anything and everything
Nothing and noone.
All so we don't have a tainted paradise.

Women: Love How They Look, Hate How They Are.

I can't believe the beauty of a woman's body,
the lushness of her curves...
The sensuality in her eyes,
the tenderness of her skin.
It's astounding, how mesmerized I am.
By each detailed picture,
It's not pornography,
It's Art!!
(If tastfully done.)

I can just taste the scent of her skin
On my tongue.
The hot of an embrace.
The soft gentle feel I get once her body's near mine,
and the succulent feel of my hands in thine.

I love the female form.
But come to the terms I couldn't date the angels,
so beautiful.
So elegant.
So marvelous.
So grand.
But I would in fact, draw every curve
And hold every nerve
And...
Well.
Things I shouldn't.

Undress her with my eyes and see
How luxourious a place like that can be
Call me what you will,
but I shall have my fill--
Of a visual masterpiece--
that is the female flesh.

-x

I Would

Would you dance with me in the rain if I asked.
would you take me by the hand and laugh,
at the little things that make me fear
the future and the sun?
would you?
would you...

Would you lick my wounds if the midday sun
destroyed my umbrella
would you?
would you..
take me and cradle me,
holding me tight as your tend to the scars
Would you...
would you

Because I'd do the same for you
I'm the one that would kill a beast
fight an army
catch the sun and jar the moon
so you can see day and night when you please
as you please
I aim to please
I love you to the end of the stars in the sky...

Would you...would you?

A New Year!

Hello, my beautiful readers.

It's a new year, meaning it's time for some new poetry! I will be posting older works too, so you can see how I've progressed over the years, and I hope you enjoy all of it!! :]

I love you all, and hope to hear feedback from you soon!!

-The Management

The Angry Beast

There's an knot in my head,
where the logic used to be.
Now it's filled with buzzing gnats,
irritating me, making me swill with
Bullshit.
I never liked to begin with.


Where are my pills?! Where
is my tea?! MY WARM PJS?!!!
Where, above all is my hug...
Or my Mozart.

-x